The joys of being a sister = BEING AN AUNT

Howdy Bloggers!!

Today was a very special day in the Ward/Cleveland/Brasher family. My sister as a lot of you know is pregnant again with her second little bundle of joy and today we found out what she and my brother in-law would be having. I won't lie when I say, as it got closer to finding out the more I was hoping that she would have a little girl. I know it will be hard, because if she has a girl, then we're all in for it. Liam is by far the cutest little boy on the planet, yes I'm very biased because I love him so much, but he has the most amazing blue eyes...any girl will fall for him with just those. So if they are to have a little girl, and if she has blonde hair and blue eyes just like Liam...well we are flippin' screwed! We are all gonna have to invest in shotguns when she hits teenage years, and look out for her; scaring all those boys away. ;)

So with that being said, I'll tell you that she IS in fact having a baby girl. :)

I'm so utterly excited and overjoyed at the moment. Being an aunt to Liam is a blessing and he brings me so much joy each day. he is so smart, and will lay his head on Mo's stomach and say "baby"...it brings tears to my eyes. Liam is going to be the worlds best big brother to this little girl and I can NOT wait to see him with her...well that's not entirely true. I can wait, because in a few short months he will have to share all the attention with his baby sister, and it's going to be oh so fun. haha. 

I won't lie when I say I always thought it would be awesome to have a big brother, but having a big sister is pretty dang amazing. She's taught me so much over the years, and has been looking out for me since I was a baby. Reading books to me when I was little, teaching me about history, singing Disney songs to me when I felt bad, she brought so many different kinds of genre of music/movies into my life, and so many other things that would take me FOREVER to put down. I don't tell her enough how much I love/appreciate everything she does for me, and I should. We've had such a crazy relationship over the years but in the end...no one ever has your back like a sister does. No one can share in the heart aches like a sister, and no one will embarrass you quite like a sister. ;)

She made me an aunt nearly two years ago, and the joy it's brought into my life is undeniable. The love I have for her son, is unwavering and I will love him until the day I die, just like I will for her daughter. I can not wait for the day when I have kids and they get to have her as an aunt. They will be getting the worlds best aunt on the planet. Once again, I'm biased, but I can not wait for her to teach my little ones things I may not be able too. She shared her love with reading with me at a young age and I took it for granted for FAR too long, and I'm glad I finally realized my love for it, and I wouldn't have if it weren't for her. I can't wait to see her read to my little ones like she read to me all those years ago. She's an amazing mom, and I don't tell her that enough either. Watching her be a mother to Liam is by far the highlight of my days lately with living with her again. Watching them together and the way they will cuddle and watch tv/read together brings a smile to my face and I pray that one day I'm half the mom her and my mom are. 

Being a sister...I haven't always been the best one honestly, but I love having her as a big sister. I couldn't have asked for a better big sister than her, who has given me chance after chance. God knew EXACTLY what he was doing when He gave me her as a sister. Sure we butt heads a lot, but when I need her, she is always there. To help walk me through whatever meltdown I'm having with a heartache or freak out. So Mo, I love you more than you could ever know, and I KNOW I don't show it often, but thank you for everything you have EVER done for me. Thank you for giving me chance after chance, forgiving me, teaching me everything you have. For reading to me when I was younger, and showing me the importance of literature in my life. Thank you for helping me through boy drama and eating I don't know how many gallons of Blue Bell ice cream to get through said boy drama. Thank you for giving me the opportunity for being an aunt. I love it, and can't wait to be an aunt to your daughter when she makes her arrival in October. 

Welp, I guess that's all I have to say about that. There's more I could say, but it's hard to put it all in words at the moment. haha.

I hope everyone had an amazing Sunday funday.

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God Bless.

Tiffany Leigh

Think like Jack....

Howdy blog world.

I'm giving myself a "Pirates of the Caribbean" marathon this cloudy/rainy not sure what the hell it wants to do Wednesday in Texas. 

Each time I watch these movies I am reminded as to why I love these movies so much...and it doesn't have ALL to do with Johnny Depp( I know madness right?)  The story lines are interesting, whether I may agree with where the writers went with the stories every movie is debatable...but I usually enjoy the situations they put my favorite character in. With the exception of "killin'" him in the second movie...which made sense in the end but STILL. Don't do that to that to Captain Jack. Alright, on with my ramble...I love these movies because of Captain Jack...the situations he gets in always seem dire and he always find some kind of way to get out of them. They aren't every day kind of issues...but sometimes you have to think like Jack to get out of situations. 

That's what I'm doin' today. I've been in a weird frame of mind the past couple days due to the post I did a couple days ago, and I wasn't quite ready for the bombardment of thoughts that invaded my mind at lightening speed. I found myself wanting to run away like Jack did. Screaming and flailing my arms..but that just isn't me. I refuse to give up, and let the insecurities win...because that's inevitably what they are trying to do. Bring me down enough to where I'll start to believe them and get depressed all over again...

So I'm thinkin' like Jack. Thinkin' out of the ordinary and makin' my way through the waves as they come and tryin' to enjoy the ride. 

I've had to learn to be quick on my feet in several situations and I've had to learn from several mistakes in the past and no one is perfect...I'd rather be me, with all my quirks, mistakes, flaws, all my personality traits...than perfect. Where's the fun in that? Learning on your feet is always more of a fun experience...or at least to me it is...sometimes you have to chose the more difficult road to go down than the one that seems plausible...look at Jack. He got eaten by a dang giant squid..I don't think ANYONE really saw that one comin'...including Jack. 

One of my favorite quotes that I always have a tendency to forget is, "The problem is not the problem.The problem is our attitude about the problem." Captain Jack truly is a smart character...even if he is drunk most of the time. If you have a positive attitude about any problem, whatever it may be ...the problem may not seem like a problem...more like a I don't know...let's call it a fun experience to journey through. If I think like Jack...things may seem more fun more often rather than dreary and like I'm about to get sucked into a Maelstrom. I just have to stay positive...no matter what and not let the world get me down, think like Jack and just take what the world gives me with a smile and some quirky comeback. Who knows...maybe even try and walk like him. HA, so kiddin'. 

Life is full of ups and downs...sometimes those ups and downs can be unclear...and maddeningly unhelpful...but it just takes a little thought to work through each situation...sometimes thinkin' like Jack is the answer...and sometimes using our own brain is the answer. There's nothing wrong with looking toward others for help, we just have to come up with the answers on our own...ya know? Be our own person, and make our decisions on our own. Advice is always helpful...but NEVER do something just because someone tells you to..

That's interesting right? ;)

Well I guess my ramble session is over and I'll go on with my day.

"Bring me that horizon." :)
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God Bless.

Tiffany Leigh

Happy Mother's Day!!

Howdy bloggers!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Well today is mother's day and I'm going to gush and boast about my momma in this post. :) 

People always say that their mother's are better than everyone else's and honestly...everyone is entitled to their opinion and EVERYONE is going to think their mom is better than someone else's...I'm no different. It takes a strong person to be a mother, to be able to handle all of the ups and downs of their child's life. 

I've always believed that God gave me my momma for a specific reason, and every time I do something right/wrong it's brought to my attention again. She always pushes me to be the person she knows I can be. Her endless support for me is unwavering  and even though we may not see eye to eye on everything(and we never will) we do on the things that truly matter in life. I've learned so much from her; how to a woman of God, my creativity comes from her, my love for people and putting others before myself, that somethings are more important than worldly items, ect. She has taught me so much in my 27 years of life and I know the lessons are still coming. 

She's always been my biggest fan and I couldn't be more grateful to her for being someone I could talk to and go to for advice when I couldn't go to friends. She loves me for who I am..faults, past mistakes, and future mistakes to come. I suppose that come naturally when you become a momma and I can't wait to become a mother one day and pass on what she has taught me to my son/daughter. I hope I'm half the mom she is, because if I'm anything like she was to me, my kids will know just how amazing their Gigi is when I have them. 

She has shared in my triumphs and shared in  my tears with me. She's taught me compassion, loyalty, the importance of being honest NO MATTER WHAT. She has taught me that strength comes in many forms and that being weak isn't a bad thing. She's taught me to reach for the stars, that nothing isn't impossible with God. 

I may not say "Thank you" enough, or show how much she means to me enough, but I do hope that she knows that I love her more and more every day. That NOTHING she has done for me through the years has been forgotten. NOTHING she has told me is truly forgotten either, it's in my brain just waiting for the opportune moment to share it's knowledge with me once again. I'm not ungrateful to everything she has done for me, I may get overwhelmed with the world, and take her for granted, but I wouldn't be who I am without her guidance and support. I wouldn't have the determination to not give up, if it weren't for her either. I get some of my best traits from her and it always brings a smile to my face when people say I'm like her. I don't get it often, because I do have so much of my dad in me, but OH MAN, no one truly knows how over joyed I am when I get comments about how I take after her. I don't even think she knows how happy it makes me. 

When my dad wasn't around, my momma became my best friend. I know that seems weird to some people, but she did. We we got closer than we had ever been before and I'm so grateful for that fact. She helped me to find myself, push me to be myself and not change for anyone. Told me that EVERYDAY, and it took time to sink in, and once I finally figured it out, she was there. Cheering me on. She's always been my cheerleader too. :) She is one of the strongest people in my life, and as I said before, I want to be the kind of woman she is. I've seen her work her way through some hard trails and she comes out stronger/tougher than before and I'd like to think and I want her to know...that THAT'S the person I want to be. 

So thank you momma for all that you do. For the person you are. For the teacher you truly are. I love you so much and I thank God everyday for the fact that he chose you to be my mother. That you have stood by me through all my trials, triumphs  and everything to come. Being your daughter is a privalige and I also thank God that I was given the chance to call you mom. I love you and thank you for everything you do for me on a daily basis. I know you have put up with some real crap from me through the years, but thank you for never giving up on me. For always cheering me on, helping me see the person God wants me to be. For teaching me the importance in being a true friend and everything that entails. I could keep going on with this post but I believe she and all of you know/can see how much I love my momma. 

God bless all the moms in the world. We wouldn't be here without all of you. :)

Tiffany Leigh

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It's a little bit funny.....

Howdy bloggers.

Well i woke up in the oddest of moods, which is bound to happen when I finally say screw it to everything holdin' me back...it all come full force at me like race horses...which is EXACTLY what happened.

That's the only problem with givin' everything to God...once you do, the fight is 100x harder than it was before, and being strong enough to pull through can be damn difficult. I had an awesome afternoon with a really good friend, talked to my best friend via text, and then came home and one I was home...the race was on it seemed. It's like as long as I'm around people or I have other things on my mind, it's near impossible for the damn negative thoughts to come in...but once I'm alone...and I have time to think...the buzzer sounds and the horses are off and I'm the target....it's a little bit funny how that works.

I've had so much on my mind with this guy I care deeply for and this other guy that I thought...would help me get over the first guy...which in turn is NOT fair, and I know this. I'm not a bad person...I'm not...I don't play games, and yet...these two are doing just that. Playing games.  It isn't THAT difficult to figure out what you want it you stop letting OTHER people control what you think.  Which is EXACTLY what this one guy is doin'. It bugs the utter SHIT(sorry) out of me that he does that...but I can't seem to let him go. Which is stupid, because I know I deserve someone who isn't goin' to play game with my heart, feelings, or emotions. However...when we're together, just him and me...no one else...it's damn near perfect. We can sit there and talk about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING...just shoot the bull so to speak and I'm always happy when I'm with him...now I don't necessarily have to be with him to be happy...but it never fails...anytime we spend any amount of time together, I'm happy. It's a little bit funny how that happens.

Lately I'm not sure what's really goin' on with us...if there is anything goin' on.  I'd like to think there is...but he listens to some of his friends more than he should and he lets them influence him...he won't admit it...but my best friend and I know it...shit(sorry) even his family knows it.  I'm not certain as to why he does that...he isn't weak..in fact he's damn strong, he just doesn't believe it most of the time...it's a little bit funny how standin' on the outside I can see so much.

I hate feelin' like I do at this moment. I'm so uncertain of what's goin' on with him...and he always shuts me out when he gets damn afraid...and that's what he is...he drinks his pain away because he's too afraid to face what he's done and move on...and I can't leave him alone. He's my friend and I care about him...hell I love him...in love with him....and I can't just leave him hanging when he needs positive people in his life. You know how I said in earlier posts how I care with my whole heart and people don't know how to handle it at times. He doesn't...in fact I think most of the time he thinks I'm crazy because I won't leave him alone...that I want to be there for him...help him through...I want him to know I'm not going anywhere. When he needs me I'll be there. I wouldn't change a dang thing about him...honestly because I fell in love with all the insecurities he has, all his faults, his past mistakes, everything...so if I changed him...he wouldn't be who I fell in love with...I want him to want to be the person I know he can be...that his family knows he can be...that HE knows he can be. He just has to do what I've done and stop fighting it. It's a little bit funny how you surround yourself with people who go through the same things you have...

I guess a great deal of what I"m feeling right now has to do with the fact due to past mistakes YEARS ago, I'm now having to deal with a circumstance I never thought I would...and I know God is handling it...that he will lead me through this like he does everything else, but I'm not gonna lie to y'all. I'm a little scared, and I know where fear comes from and it's not from God...so that's why I'm trying so damn hard not to let the devil get to me...but he did last night BIG time. I was in some pain and I decided to take some advil to ya know help releave it...I laid down and cuddled up with a blanket and watched The Voice( I was behind on episodes) and the more I laid there, the more pain I was in...so I decided to sit up, and put my legs to my chest in hopes that would help...it did a little and I did something you should never do. Googled what I was feeling...that was STUPID! Shouldn't have done it because then my mind started going 90 to nothing and all I wanted was a shot of whiskey.  I was like my the guy I love...I just wanted to get out of the house and go drink...get my mind off and get numb. I know better and that's why I didn't leave, and I stayed home and wrote on Make a Wish on 11. I had to find comfort in something because I didn't want to call him...I knew he was with friends and didn't want to bug him...so I didn't. I have an appointment on the 23rd because well that was the earliest I could get in to see this new doctor I'm going too.  Good news is they told me that as soon they figure out what's going on we can schedule the procedure I have to undergo asap. Which is good, because if I have to wait too much longer I'm gonna lose my mind a little bit. I guess I already am, my emotions are all out of whack, more things make me cry than usual( and people who know me know I already cry at a lot anyways). For example, I heard a song yesterday, while driving home on my XM radio by Miranda Lambert..."Over". I've hard it a hundred times and yesterday I lost it while drivin' and had to suck it up before I walked in the door at home. It's a little bit funny how emotions can get the best of you when you don't want them too.

Everyone has their bad days, or days that start out bad, and that was today for me. The sun is shining right now and a humming bird just flew past my window...which is odd, considering we don't really have those here... I just have to find the positive when things try and get me down like this morning. I have work tonight and I get to see Hayley, which will be fun because I'll be able to hear about her trip and it'll be extra busy the next two days so that'll be nice...I guess I just wish I could drive over to his house when I get off work and enjoy his company...maybe it'l happen one day...sooner rather than later. 

"It's a little bit funny this feeling inside I'm not one of those who can easily hide I don't have much money but boy if I did I'd buy a big house where we both could live If I was a sculptor, but then again no Or a man who makes potions in a traveling show I now it's not much, but it's the best I can do My gift is my song and this ones for you And you can tell everybody that this is your song It might be quite simple but, now that it's done I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind, that I put down in words How wonderful life is now that you're in the world"


God Bless y'all. Hopefully I can stay strong through this.
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Tiffany Leigh

Rainy Day

Hello bloggers! 

Well I'm off on t his gloomy hopefully rainy Thursday. :) 

I have some errands I have to run today and hopefully spending time with a friend I haven't seen in awhile which I'm looking forward too! :)

My life is pretty dang amazing right now, because I have all the people I want/need in my life and their support, love, laughter, jokes, advice, and everything else they bring is always appreciated. Each one of them brings something different to my life and I learn something new from them. It always brings a smile to my face when I make plans with one of them, or if they are just  like, "I miss you come see me". It's always a good feeling to be missed and I think we take it for granted at times. I have so many friends that are fighters like me, and I guess that's what pulls me to them. It's like a magnetic pull and I wouldn't change the pulls that I've gotten over the last year. This time last year, was the time when Nicole Ciulla and I started to get close, and it was inevitable after that. Our friendship grew like a wild fire...but in a good way. We started to hang out before/after work, on days off, and from May on...we were nearly inseparable. She had her sister wedding in June, and when she came back it was like no time had passed since we saw each other. I truly believe God knew exactly what he was doing when he put me at Movie Tavern...the people he knew I would need on that journey and Nicole was definitely one, along with Norma. Those two girls have been through hell and back with me, and have never left my side. I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't have either one of them in my life. They are both strong and fighters! They go after what they want, and to hell with anyone who gets in the way. I love that about them. I miss Nicole everyday, but I'm grateful for the fact that we talk nearly everyday via text/phone. 

Well I would love to keep going on with this lovely post, but I really need to get my day going. ;) Oh, bloggers, anyone who reads this, feel free to follow me on instagram and I'll follow back. The name is ginger_texan11. I hope ya'll have an amazing blessed day. And I hope I get to see my friends smiling face after I run all these errands. :)

Take care.

Tiffany Leigh

Determination

Howdy bloggers.

Well it's a new day and a new week, and I couldn't be any more determined than I am now. 

Do you ever wake up and just say to yourself, "Nothing is gonna stop me today!"? I did this morning, at the crack of dawn...literally.  My body woke me up at about 6 am this morning, and I opened my eyes to see the sun rise through my window and hear sparrows, mockingbirds, and cardinals singing their songs to the world. All I wanted to do was start my day a new, with no stress, no worries, and nothing holding me back.  Truth be told, nothing is holding me back but myself and my damn(sorry) insecurities. I know everyone has them, but me and my dang insecurities have been havin' it out for years, and I'm finally at a point of saying, SCREW IT!" I'm so utterly exhausted with not feeling good enough, not being pretty enough, skinny enough,  ect. It's all bull and I know it, believe me do I ever know it, but remembering it every day and saying "screw you" to those thoughts has always been my downfall. It's been an inner battle for as long as I can remember...not feeling pretty enough, or not being good enough, or for carin' to dang much...

I'm exhausted with it all. No one has control over these thoughts but me...and who puts them there in the first place. I suppose that's why for the longest time I felt like I needed to be tanner, have a different hair color, and change myself for people.  Well you know what I say to all that bull? I'm THROUGH! I am who I am for a reason. God made me a porclain skinned, freckled redhead for a reason, why in the hell(SORRY) would/should I change that? Redheads are a dying breed and I should feel unique and happy that I have the hair color I do. I guess that's why I'm trying so hard to get my hair back to it's natural red, which has been...well difficult to say the least. Yeah, sure it would be nice to be able to get tan in the sun like so many of my friends, however redheads...we just aren't really meant to be tan and would look down right weird. Now, I do in the summer put on the sunless tanning lotion to give myself a little glow, because I don't want to glow in the dark. ;) I'm not super skinny, I'm not as toned as I used to be, and it bugs me...but this is all something that I can change. I just have to give myself the motivation to do it, and I'm pushing myself each day to do mini workouts, because if I push myself too hard, I'll end up hurting myself. I'm determined to get my toned legs, abs and arms back whatever it takes...

I'm exhausted with the not feeling pretty enough...and I know where this thought comes from I pray everyday for that thought not to enter my mind...but somehow it always sneaks in. I refuse to let myself fall or date anyone that says I'm beautiful and only talks about my body...REFUSE! I will do not want to be with someone bad enough that I would date someone who is only interested in the physical...it's not worth the trouble and in the end...I'd get hurt...it's happened before and I learned the HARD way that I don't NEED someone to be happy in my own skin. This is what this hole post is about. Being happy in my own skin. My own beauty. Being happy with me and saying "SCREW IT" to all the negative thoughts that try to make their way into my head. I do not NEED a man in my life to feel beautiful, I just NEED to believe it MYSELF. Ya know? Sure feeling wanted because your beautiful is an amazing feeling, but being wanted for who you are as a person FIRST, is a much more incredible feeling. Looks change...but who we are personality wise..who we are as a person..that's what is REAL and shouldn't change. If someone doesn't like you for you are, then they aren't worth a second glance. I'm saying that to y'all as well as myself. 

I'm determined to be me...to not change myself (besides fitness wise) for anyone EVER again. The last time I changed myself for someone was a couple years back and I've been trying to find my way back ever since. Fighting those dang insecurities that came back with a vengeance that I really didn't see coming, and I'm FINALLY at a point where I can say "screw all this bull!" It's been a difficult journey getting here, trying to surround myself around people that will support, love, and be there for me no matter what. The insecurities I've dealt with my entire life will always be there, waiting to come out and hit me with their best shot, but knowing I am strong enough NOW, to fight them off...finding the strength within, finding the strength with God, and with those who truly love me, is what gets me through now.  With finding a friend to help me get my writing out, to having the support system I do, to having this new amazing job that God blessed me with...it all helped turn on the light bulb so to speak. To just say, "Screw everyone who tries to put me down. Screw the negative thoughts. I am who I am. I care with all that I am. I'm a fighter, I'm a believer, I'm a friend , daughter, sister, aunt, hopeless romantic, country lover, who refuses to change ever again. I fight for my friends. I fight for what I want, and I don't give up." 

I'm FINISHED with the insecurities and letting them get the better of me. I'm free and I will fight with everything in me to not let them get to me again.

God bless y'all. 

Thanks for letting me vent it all out.

Tiffany Leigh

Like a "ROCK"

A close friend and I were having an argument about which truck was better. Ford or Chevy. Now being born and raised a Chevy girl, I can NOT stray from the beauty that is a Z71 Silverado with a lift kit, kick A tires, and everything that makes a truck...well a truck. I won't lie...I do like Ford trucks...that and the GT Cobra Mustang are ALL I like that comes from Ford...mainly the KING Ranch Truck...because after I saw it at the Texas State Fair this past year...well..they're pretty. LOL

Ford and Chevy have the best slogans for their trucks. Ford, is "BUILT TOUGH" and Chevy is "LIKE A ROCK". I mean...what's better than those two? I say nothing.

I personally love those because right now, they describe me. I've been through hell and back over the past months, learning lessons, growing up, letting go of obstacles that were holding me back, and I've realized I'm a great deal stronger than I thought. I'm built tough and I'm like a rock. God made me tough, I mean, come on...I'm the only redhead in my family; I've had a love hate with my hair color along with my skin tone, and it took me much too long to love me for me. Redheads have to be tough just like blondes because we get made fun of quite a bit, however I'd take a blonde joke over being told I have no soul any day. ;) 

I've had to grow tephlan skin as my Papa would say which has made me stronger. God made me TOUGH. It hasn't been an easy road, but that's why we have trucks...to help us over the rocky terrain(Just like God helps me) of course also to help us through the mud. ;) Now comes the "Like a Rock". Rocks stand firm during all types of weather, can handle being stepped on, thrown around ect...that's sorta what I've been going through lately. God NEVER gives me more than I can handle...it says that in his word, and each time I come out the other side stronger than I was before, I'm amazed that I was able to handle the situation he put me in. I've been walked on by past friendships, I've been "thrown" around by those same friendships, and I stand firm in who I am, what I believe, and what I want out of my life. I'm like a 'ROCK" because of God, because of the people he has placed in my life to support me and love me; and because he loves me..imperfections, faults, mistakes, everything. To me, there is nothing greater than knowing no matter what, I have that to lean on. I'm so utterly blessed to have such strong men and women in my life and some of them don't even realize how strong they are....but when they do, WATCH OUT WORLD. You won't know what hit you. God knew the people he wanted to be in my life from day one, when I would need them, and who will stand by me during my hardships/trials, and those people have made themselves known throughout the past months. I thank each and every one of you for standing by me, even when times were CRAZY, and I was a mess. You helped me see the light, and bring me back to reality with support and love day, night, measly hours in the morning...it doesn't matter with y'all and for that I thank you, and I'm grateful to all of you.

I've been around trucks my entire life. My dad, papa, my sister's boyfriends, my guy friends...have all had trucks, and I've always loved them...however it wasn't until recently that I truly realized how much I love them. They're built strong, to handle all kinds of terrain and weather. They're built big to accommodate carrying all types of loads, families, ect. What's not to love about trucks? ;)
I'm a southern gal, finding myself and loving myself for who God has made me to be for the first time. Being me...being southern...loving the country, trucks, gettin' dirty, being outside...it's who I am...I'm done fighting it...it's a useless battle and I did the same thing with my writing, and once I found that love that had always been there, hidden under insecurities I put that love for writing into first gear and went full steam ahead. I'm doing the same thing now. I'm done fighting who God made me to be...
I'm a hopeless romantic, who's always looking for that forever love, that does exist I believe that with all my heart, and refuse to settle for anything less than what I want and deserve.
I'm a writer. I use past experiences, dreams, my interests, and pure imagination to write out and create my own worlds. It's so calming and relaxing to just sit and let out what I'm thinking, feeling, imagining onto paper or the computer. I may not be as good as Stephen King or Nora Roberts, but I have faith and I have courage to not give up. It's not in me. I'm a fighter. I don't like to give up on things that are put in front of me, UNLESS in the end, they bring me down...make me depressed and doubt who I am. Sometimes I have to decide what is worth fighting for and what isn't. It's not being weak, it's being strong in knowing when to let things go. I'm tough. I have to be...maybe not HAVE to be...but I chose to be. I have a big heart, which helps me to forgive people easily and care deeply about those in my life. I give second, third, fourth, chances...I even give more, because people are NOT perfect. We are human, and make mistakes daily, and I am NOT one to judge. I've made plenty of mistakes, and I don't have that right, only God does and I leave that to him. I believe people can change if they chose to, but it has to be on their terms, with themselves and God. I KNOW I can NOT change anyone, I've seen people I love try to change others, and I've seen the heart ache. I don't want to do that, I simply want those I love to know, I'm there. Anytime. Day, night, measly hours...I won't give up on them, because they won't give up on me.  I care with my whole heart, and some people don't know how to deal with it, and it freaks them out, makes them think I'm crazy..but I'm not. Like I said, I just care so much, because my heart is so big...I don't know how to be any other way.
 I'm country. I may not live on a farm, have horses, or a big twain in my voice, but I love horses, being outside, gettin' dirty, all those things make me...me. I'm a tom boy with a girly side. I've always been a tom boy. I love sports, doin' hard work, gettin' dirty, but I also have that side where it's fun to get dressed up...go shop with the gals every now and then...that's just me.
 I'm a rock when it comes to what I believe. I'm a Christian. I have been since the 2nd grade, and God has provided for me COUNTLESS times. I've fallen away several times, but always find my way back to him. I have faith that God provides through every trial, no matter how difficult and no matter how hard they are...he provides through it all.I have that firm faith because he has proven to provide solace and comfort through so many obstacles and hurts I've been through. I believe everything happens for a reason. I know people HATE that saying, but God puts us in situations so we may learn from them, at the time, we NEVER see what that lesson is. But after...oh after it's always so clear and knowing you have this being with you, every step of the way, protecting you and showing you that "hey, yeah that situation sucked, but you had to go through it to become the person I want you to be." It's always hard to wrap my mind around especially with everything I've been through, but in the end, he's always right. I've become so much stronger as a person, more forgiving, more open with those that love me...everything happens for a reason.
  I believe in the power of prayer and what that entails. I believe God answers all of our prayers, even if it isn't in a blatant way that we can see immediately; he answers them on his own time which in the end is always perfect.  People assume there's a right and wrong way to pray...there's not. it's simply talking to God like you would a friend...because that's what he is. He loves us...no matter what we do, all we have to do is ask for forgiveness, learn from that mistake and forgive ourselves. THAT is the hardest part...and has ALWAYS been the hardest thing for me to do. Is forgive myself for the mistakes and choices I've made. In the end, I realize, if God can love me, even with all of those mistakes, why can't I love myself in return? I've FINALLY forgiven myself for all my past mistakes and choices and I'm determined to not repeat the past. That determination comes with me being stubborn. It's a good and bad trait to have and I wouldn't be me without that stubbornness.

I'm a SOUTHERN GAL. I'm a HOPELESS ROMANTIC. I'm a WRITER. I'm a CHRISTIAN. I'm STUBBORN. I'm FORGIVING. I'm a LOVER. I'm a FIGHTER. I'm a true FRIEND. I'm COUNTRY. I'm a TOM BOY. I'm an AUNT. I'm a SISTER.I'm a DAUGHTER.
 I'm built TOUGH. I'm like a ROCK.

That's me in a nutshell...there's more to me...but this...this is the important part of who I am. Take it or leave it.


God Bless y'all and enjoy this BEAUTIFUL Friday. :)

Tiffany Leigh